Here I am only weeks out from graduating from Nursing school only to fail my exit exam. I was beyond devastated and a little angry. Why was this happening to me? God you said that this was the path you wanted me on the how could you have possibly let me fail ? All these kinda questions ran through my mind all because of my fleshly anger. But in my spirit however something totally different was taking place. My spirit was speaking the promises of Gods word over me even in my despair. So I studied for my next big test the same week only to fail it as well and dropped my average below passing. OMG . This can't be life , definitely not my life. How and why is this happening to me?! In the midst of all of this I realized God was teaching me a lesson, as well as testing my faith and endurance. I was being stripped on my self-dependency (which I didn't even realize had snuck back in). This had nothing to do with me not being smart, knowledgable, and intelligent. This had everything to do with my dependence on God and trusting in Him and what He had told me I was called to do. I had forgotten that even the purpose of my life wasn't for me but all for Gods glory. I was/am humbled.
So yesterday I went in to take my last test which I needed an 82 on in order to pass the course and retake my exit exam again. I had such a peace in my spirit and I had decided that no matter what happened I wanted God to have his way. I walked out of that test knowing I had did my very best and God would handle the rest. Yall, GOD showed up and showed out . I got exactly an 82 on my test and brought my average up to passing ! Can you say speechless. 😭🙌🏾. I appreciate this journey through nursing school all the more than I did before. It wasn't anything I did, but ALL GOD. All the stretching, strengthened my faith muscle !!
